A Gospel Legend Told Marvin Gaye God’s Voice Was Being Wasted — Marvin Disappeared for Three Days — D

There was a conversation that almost nobody knows happened. It did not take place in a recording studio or on a stage or in one of the Motown conference rooms where the business of making Marvin Gaye into a star was conducted. It took place in a church in the specific charged silence of a room that smelled like candle wax and old wood and the particular kind of holiness that accumulates in spaces where people have been bringing their grief and their gratitude for decades.

Two men were in that room. One of them was Marvin Gaye. The other was Reverend James Cleveland. And what Reverend Cleveland said to Marvin Gaye in that room sent Marvin into three days of silence so complete that the people around him thought something had broken in him permanently. He disappeared.

Not from the city, not from the building, but from himself. He went somewhere internal that nobody could follow and nobody could reach. Three days. When he came back, he finished What’s Going On. To understand what happened in that room, you have to understand who Reverend James Cleveland was. Not in the way that music industry insiders knew him.

As a successful gospel recording artist with a string of award-winning albums and a Grammy and a reputation that made him one of the most respected figures in black sacred music. You have to understand him the way Marvin Gaye understood him, which is to say from the inside. From the position of a man who had grown up in the church and who carried the church inside him everywhere he went, even when he was making music that the church would not have recognized as its own.

James Cleveland was born in Chicago in 1931 and grew up singing in church the way many black children of his generation grew up singing in church. Not as a chosen activity, but as a natural extension of being alive in that community, in that tradition, in that particular form of black spiritual life that expressed itself through music because music was the form most adequate to what it needed to say.

He sang as a child in the choir of Pilgrim Baptist Church in Chicago, which was the church where Thomas Dorsey, the father of gospel music, served as musical director. He grew up, in other words, at the absolute source of the tradition. Not downstream from it, but at the spring itself, learning from the man who had invented the form what the form required, and what it meant, and what it was for.

He became the most important figure in gospel music of the second half of the 20th century. Not the most famous in the commercial sense, though he was famous enough. But the most important in the sense of having shaped what the music was, what it could do, and who could do it. He trained singers. He organized the Gospel Music Workshop of America, which became the largest gospel music organization in the world.

He produced records and directed choirs, and mentored a generation of gospel musicians who would go on to change not just gospel music, but popular music. Because the line between gospel and soul has always been a permeable one, and the people who understood gospel at the deepest level were the people who understood soul at the deepest level, because they were drawing from the same source.

Marvin Gaye knew this. He had always known this. His entire musical life was built on this knowledge, even when he was not making music that acknowledged it explicitly. The gospel foundation was always there, underneath the love songs and the political statements and the erotic philosophy.

It was the structural element that everything else rested on. The reason the voice could do what it did. The reason it had the specific quality of honest transmission, rather than skilled performance, that made it different from other voices. He had been trying to get away from that foundation and back to it simultaneously for his entire career.

Away from it because the church had also been the site of his father’s authority, the place where the sacred and the damaging occupied the same space and could not be fully separated. Back to it because it was where the music made the most complete sense, where the voice was most fully itself, where the gap between the singer and the song closed most completely.

Cleveland had been watching Marvin’s career with a specific, complicated attention of a man who recognized in Marvin’s music both the gospel foundation and the distance from the gospel foundation simultaneously. He heard What’s Going On, Brother and heard in it a man who was reaching for something that the secular frame was not quite large enough to contain.

He heard pride and joy and recognized the gospel shout underneath the love song. He heard Marvin Gaye’s voice doing everywhere what gospel voices do in church, which is transmit rather than perform. And he recognized this as a gift that came from the tradition and that was being used in ways that the tradition had not sanctioned.

He was not hostile to this. He was not a man who believed that sacred gifts could only be used in sacred contexts, that the voice God gave you was only permitted to sing God’s music. He was more sophisticated than that, more aware of the complicated ways that music moved between the sacred and the secular and carried something of each into the other.

He understood that Marvin Gaye singing about love was not the same as a person who had no gospel foundation singing about love, that the specific quality of what came through the voice was shaped by the tradition even when the subject matter had moved away from it. But he also heard something in Marvin’s recordings that troubled him, a quality of reaching that was not quite arriving, a quality of a man who was using the tool for purposes it could serve but not for the purpose it was most fully suited to. He heard, in other words, what Ray Charles had heard years earlier and what Al Green would later articulate more precisely and what everyone who listened to Marvin Gaye with the deepest attention heard, the gap between what the voice was and what it was being used for. He and Marvin had been in the same circles for years. Gospel and soul overlapped in ways that brought their practitioners into the same rooms regularly, the same award shows and benefit concerts and recording sessions and industry gatherings. They had spoken before, brief conversations, the kind that happened between two people who

respect each other’s work and who are aware that there is more to say between them than the occasion has so far allowed. The conversation in the church happened in the early 1970s. Marvin had been to a service at the church where Cleveland was music director at the time, had gone not for professional reasons but for personal ones.

For the same reason that people who have been formed by the church returned to it in complicated periods of their lives, because the music there does something that the music elsewhere cannot quite replicate. He was in the middle of the battle of for what’s going on. He was in the middle of the slow disintegration of his first marriage.

He was in the middle of the question that had been the central question of his creative life for years and that he had not yet found the final form for. He went to church and he heard the choir and something in the hearing reached him in the specific way that church music reaches people who grew up in it.

In the body first and then in everything else. Cleveland found him afterward in a side room. Not dramatically, not with the air of a man who had been waiting for this opportunity. Simply found him, the way people find each other in the smaller spaces around larger events, in the doorways, in the corridors, in the quiet rooms adjacent to the main action.

They talked about music first, because music was always the entry point for both of them, the language they shared most completely, about what Cleveland was working on and what Marvin was working on and about the state of gospel and the state of soul and the relationship between them that both men had spent their careers navigating.

And then Cleveland said something. He said it quietly. He said it without accusation. Without the kind of dramatic delivery that the statement might have received from man who was making a performance of the saying rather than simply saying the thing. He said it the way James Cleveland said most important things, as if the truth of it was self-evident and required no elaboration.

Only acknowledgement, he said. God gave you that voice and you are spending it on the world’s business. The room was quiet after that. Not the uncomfortable quiet of a statement that has caused offense or the thoughtful quiet of a statement that is being evaluated. The specific resonant quiet of a statement that has landed somewhere deep and is now doing work there that neither person in the room can quite observe directly. Marvin did not argue.

He did not defend himself or explain the music or describe the ways in which what he was making was also, in its own way, sacred work. He did not say what he might have said, which was that what’s going on was as close to prayer as any music he had heard that year. That Let’s Get It On was an argument for the sanctity of physical love.

That the secular and the sacred were not opposites in his music, but were always trying to find each other. He did not say any of this because Cleveland had not said that what Marvin was making was bad. He had said something different, something that could not be answered with a defense of the music. He had said that the voice was a specific kind of gift, the kind that carries with it a specific kind of responsibility, and that the responsibility was not being fully met.

Marvin left the church and disappeared for 3 days. The people who were around him during those days have described it as one of the more alarming periods in his life, which is saying something given how many alarming periods there were. He was not absent from the world in a physical sense. He was not unreachable by phone or missing from his house.

But the people who spoke to him said that he was not entirely present in the conversations, that he was somewhere else, inside something, working through something that was not yet ready to be shared. He was in the church in a sense, not literally. But the room that Cleveland’s statement had opened in him was a room that had the quality of a church, a space where the question was not what should the music be, but what is the music for? The question that Cleveland had posed was not a new question. It was the oldest question in Marvin Gaye’s artistic life. He had been asking some version of it since Ray Charles had told him he was singing someone else’s life. Since the choir at the Vinvale Baptist Church had first shown him what a voice could do when it was fully aligned with the truth of what it was saying. But Cleveland had given the question a specific form that it had not had before. Not what are you singing about, but who are you singing for? Not what is the subject of the music, but what is the music in service of? The distinction seemed small and was enormous. He came back on the third day and went to the studio.

Not to the Motown studio, not to the official recording space where the commercial machinery of his career operated. To a smaller, quieter space where he had been working on the material that would become the final pieces of What’s Going On. He recorded the title track’s spiritual coda. The part of the album that had been incomplete.

That had been reaching toward something he could feel, but could not quite finish. The part that answered, in the only way available to him, the question that Cleveland had asked. What’s Going On was always, at its deepest level, a prayer. Not a prayer in the formal religious sense.

Not a song addressed to God in the way that gospel music is addressed to God. But a prayer in the sense that the word actually means, which is a genuine, urgent, completely honest address to something larger than yourself, asking it to account for what it has done and to offer some possibility of repair. Cleveland heard the album when it was released.

He did not say publicly what he thought of it. He was not a man who performed his responses to things for audiences. But the people who were in rooms with him when the album was playing have described his expression during those listenings as something that was very different from the neutral, professional attention of a music industry insider evaluating a colleague’s work.

He looked, they said, like a man who had asked a question and received an answer that was not quite what he expected, but that was, in its own way, complete. That is what the conversation in the church produced. Not a conversion, not a decision by Marvin Gaye to abandon secular music in favor of gospel.

Not the kind of simple resolution that dramatic stories prefer. Something more complicated and more true. A question asked in a quiet room. Three days of silence in which the question did its work. And then the music that came out of the silence, which was the only honest answer Marvin Gaye was capable of giving. He could not sing only from God.

That was not what he had been given. He had been given too much else, too much of the human and the complicated and the contradictory and the wounded. And all of it wanted to be in the music simultaneously. He could not narrow the music to a single source without losing what made the music his.

But he could sing more fully from what he had. He could close the gap, not completely, not the way Al Green had closed it by choosing one source and committing to it entirely. But in his own way, which was the way of a man who contained multitudes and could not stop them from all wanting to sing at once. Cleveland’s question helped him understand the difference between the gap as it was and the gap as it needed to be.

Between the version of the music that was reaching toward something and the version that was arriving at it. What’s going on in its completed form was arriving. Not all the way, not with the complete alignment that Cleveland might have wished for, but further than anything Marvin had made before.

It was enough. It was in fact more than enough. It was one of the greatest things any popular musician has ever made. And it was made in part in a quiet room in a church where a man asked a question that sent another man into three days of silence and then back to the studio to finish the most important work of his life.

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Leave a comment and tell us what What’s Going On means to you. And ring that notification bell so you never miss another story about the voices that told the truth and what it cost them to find it. There is a specific quality to the silence that follows a question you cannot answer. Not the silence of confusion, not the silence of someone who has been asked something they do not know and is searching for the information.

The silence of someone who has been asked something they know, have always known, and have been carrying without knowing that they were carrying it. And the question has now made the carrying visible. Marvin Gaye had been carrying the question that James Cleveland asked in that church for his entire life. He had been carrying it since the Sunday mornings in the Vineland Baptist Church choir when the music would catch and the gap between the singers and the singing would disappear and something would come through the voices that was not coming from the voices. He had been carrying it through the Motown years when he had given the machine what it needed and felt each time the specific cost of the music that did not get made, the music that the machine had no place for and that waited, accumulated, patient. He had been carrying it through the success and the recognition and the discovery that being famous for what you made was not the same as having made what you were capable of making. Cleveland’s question did not create the burden. It named it. And the naming is what sent Marvin into the three days of

silence because the naming made the burden undeniable. Made it impossible to continue carrying it without choosing to carry it, which is a different thing entirely. An unconscious burden and a chosen burden are the same weight, but they feel completely different in the body. The people who knew Marvin well during those three days have described something in his face when he returned that they had not seen there before.

Not peace exactly because Marvin Gaye was not a man who arrived at peace easily or completely. Something more like resolution. The specific quality of a face that has been through something and has come out on the other side not the same as it went in. He went to the studio and he finished the album.

The sessions for those final pieces of What’s Going On have been described by the musicians who were present as different from the earlier sessions. Not different in their technical requirements. Not different in the way the room was set up or the way the band was positioned, or the way the engineer managed the board.

Different in the atmosphere, in the specific quality of Marvin’s presence in the room, which was quieter than it usually was, and more focused, and less subject to the sudden changes of direction, and the restless searching that characterized his recording process at its most productive and most frustrating.

He knew what he was trying to do. That is what had changed. He had known before in the way that gifted people know things they have not yet made entirely conscious. He knew now in the way that the same knowledge feels when it has been made conscious. When the question has been asked, and the silence has done its work, and what emerges from the silence is not confusion, but clarity.

The clarity was not theological. Marvin Gaye was not, after the conversation with Cleveland, a man who had resolved the question of what his voice was for in the terms that Cleveland would have recognized as resolved. He was not going to become a gospel singer. He was not going to narrow the music to a single source, and commit to that source the way Cleveland himself had committed to his source.

He was too complicated for that, and the music was too complicated for that, and the people who needed to hear it were too complicated for that. But he had resolved something. He had resolved the question of whether what he was making was worth making in the fullest sense, whether it was adequate to the specific responsibility that came with the specific gift, whether the voice that Cleveland had identified as a divine gift was being used in ways that honored the gift, that were adequate to its quality, that did not waste it on purposes smaller than what it could serve. What’s going on was the answer. Not a perfect answer, not the complete alignment that Cleveland might have described as the highest use of the gift, but a genuine answer, a real attempt. A piece of music that was reaching toward the thing that the gift required, and was reaching with sufficient honesty and sufficient ambition that the reaching itself had value. James Cleveland lived until 1991. He outlived Marvin Gaye by 7 years. In the years after Marvin’s death, he was asked occasionally about the

relationship between gospel and soul, about the way sacred music and secular music had influenced each other across the decades of his career. He spoke about these things with the authority of someone who had lived at the intersection for 60 years and understood it from the inside. He did not speak publicly about the conversation in the church.

Some conversations belong to the people who had them. Some questions and the silences that follow them are private in a way that survives even the death of one of the people who was present. But the music that the conversation produced is public. It has been public for more than 50 years. It is still playing, still finding people who need to hear it, still asking the question that Marvin answered in the only way available to him, the question of what a gift is for.

The question of whether the way you are using what you have been given is adequate to the quality of the gift. The question that a man asked in a quiet room in a church and that another man carried into 3 days of silence and then back to a studio to make the most important music of his life, What’s Going On.

It is still the right question. It was always the right question. And the fact that it came in part from a conversation that almost nobody knows happened in a room that smelled like candle wax and old wood and the accumulated holiness of decades between two men who understood music from the inside and who were both, in their different ways, trying to be faithful to the gift, does not make it less right.

It makes it more right because that is where the most important questions come from, not from stages or studios or the public spaces where reputations are made, from the quiet rooms. From the conversations that nobody planned and that nobody remembers in their official accounts of how the music got made. From the moments when someone says something true and the room goes quiet and the silence begins to do its work.

3 days of silence and then the music. That is how it always goes. That is how it has always gone. The truth lands. The silence comes. And then, if the person receiving the truth is the person Marvin Gaye was, the music arrives that says the only thing that can be said after a silence like that, which is everything.

All of it at once. Directed at something larger than any single room or any single conversation, asking it to account for itself and to offer some possibility of repair. What’s going on? Still waiting for the answer. Still asking.